"TYLER PERRY ASS NIGGAS KNOWN FOR ACTING LIKE BITCHES..."

~ pressure

WTF ?!

D E D I C A T E D T O Y O U

fuck you, cuz you left me

fuck you, cuz it hurts

fuck you, cuz im lonely

fuck you, cuz you know

exactly why im mad

but you play the fool so well

you know exactly why i cry

cuz you know exactly where it hurts

so fuck you

fuck you, cuz its hard

harder than it is for you

fuck you, cuz you're fine

dont know half of what im going through

fuck you, cuz you're so strong

and im weak to say the least

fuck it ! i cant go on

im down on bended knee

its tearing up my heart

that you're so far away

fuck you, cuz you left me

fuck you, YOU SHOULD HAVE STAYED

and now im over here bitching

yelling cuz im fed up with you

i know its not even your fault

i know you dont even deserve

this crap that i put you through

but FUCK YOU cuz you put me through it first

fuck you, cuz you knew this would hurt

bad.

why? cuz i love hard. like God loves his work.

fuck you, cuz this pain wont go away

as much as i try to pretend

fuck you, cuz i get so damn upset

every moment i hear your name

your voice

see your text

see your face

through pics saved on my phone

an IM, a show

that reminds me of you

so FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU 

cuz you know how much i love you

you know how much i miss you

you know how much i NEED you 

and you know that i dont mean well

im not my self without you

im broken, and unfinished

a part of me is with you

FUCK ! why did you leave

FUCK ! why cant you leave

leave exactly where you are right now

and come on home to me?

they say that misery loves company

and i need your company bad.

i know i should be happy

but fuck it ! im soo damn mad.

so fuck you, and your vacation

fuck you, and this time apart.

fuck you, and this poem about you

cuz its now breaking my heart.

that im so mad at you

these mixed emotions got me confused

im mad that i get lost without you

what the FUCK am i gonna do.

so fuck it ! maybe i need this space

to evaluate how much i love you

time heals the wounds and sorrow

and im sorry for screaming at you

sorry for being such a baby

sorry for being a bitch

sorry for all the mean things i said

sorry for writing this

cuz i love you and you know it

that i'd die in a heartbeat for you

i love you but at times its hard to show it

cuz the situation got me so fucked up

so please dont take this to the heart

although there are some parts that i mean well

bare with me, as im trying my hardest

bare with me, cuz im trying with this

bare with me, when i get mad outta nowhere

bare with me, cuz you're truly missed

so maybe i'll change the words a lil

maybe i'll change my state of mind

no longer will i get upset

no longer will i cry
i know you heard this a thousand times
but fuck it ! im gonna try

cuz on sum real, i should be happy

i should feel real lucky too

that i guy like you could still love me

even when i say "FUCK YOU" 

~marcy

DEFINITION: BAD ( b-ad ); adjective

Gabrielle Union

BAN THIS !? THEN...

BAN THIS TOO

freedom of speech b i t c h !!!

JUST SITTING UP IN MY ROOM AND ...



an alicia keys song popped up on my playlist today and it got me thinking hard. it was sooo aligned with my emotions at the time that i just had to write about it. to let it out. to vent. HOW DO YOU FIND THE WORDS TO SAY GOODBYE WHEN YOUR HEART DONT HAVE THE HEART TO SAY GOODBYE? although i never ever ever ever wanna say goodbye, if that day, god forbid, ever came for whatever reason, i wonder how will i be able to and if i'll even be able to actually do it and let go. letting go is hard. no matter how easy it is to say it, its one of those things where it will always be the most difficult thing to do. and accomplish well. we may have the guts to leave but do we have the strength to actually let go all feelings, and to forget and move on? i shouldnt even be thinking like this, but i wonder. love hurts sometimes you know and can put us in difficult situations.  makes us happy makes us sad, confused and a whole bunch of other mixed emotions.  but im happily committed to this one special guy and i dont ever want to find out or be put in a position where i feel like i have to say goodbye.... 




btw the song was goodbye by alicia keys , great download :)

CHECK OUT WHAT KANYE SAID:

"WHEN IT'S ALL SAID AND DONE, REMEMBER THE FEARLESS, REMEMBER THE DREAMERS, REMEMBER THOSE WHO REPRESENT THE GHETTO…THE FAIRY TALE OF NOTHING TO SOMETHING. I'M BRIEFLY SADDENED BY NEGATIVE COMMENTS, BUT I HAVE TO REMEMBER THOSE PEOPLE ARE SCARED, INCAPABLE OR JUST PLAIN IDIOTS. WE ARE THE F***ING ROCK STARS BABY. NO COCAINE, JUST LIFE MY N****S!! NO COCAINE, JUST LIFE! IT'S FUNNY TO ME WHEN FASHION BLOGGERS DOWN OUR OUFITS AND THEN SUPER JOCK OUTLANDISH SHIT ON THE RUNWAY BUT THEN THEY DRESS MAD PRUDE AND DON'T LIVE FASHION. WE LIVE IT MAN. F*** THAT, WE LIVE IT!!! WE LIVE IT SO HARD PEOPLE LIVE THROUGH US! WE REPRESENT YOUR INNER SPIRIT!! THE CHILD IN US ALL, THE BRUTAL HONESTY, THE NAIVETY, THE BRAVE WARRIOR, THE ADRENALINE THAT ALLOWS A MOTHER TO LIFT A CAR IF HER CHILD WAS TRAPPED UNDER IT! REMEMBER, THERE WAS A TIME WHEN EVERYBODY DISSED MICHAEL JACKSON EVERY CHANCE THEY COULD. IMAGINE THE PRESSURE OF BEING A TRUE ICON. VERY FEW HUMAN BEINGS ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO TAKE CONSTANT HATE!!! IF WE DON'T DO WHAT YOU FEEL IS THE SHIT, YOU BEAT US UP VERBALLY AND MENTALLY, LIKE A CATHOLIC SCHOOL TEACHER BEATING A CREATIVE STUDENT INTO SUBMISSION. I CAN HEAR YOU SCREAMING 'COLOR INSIDE THE LINES!!!' WELL F*** YOUR COLORING BOOK, COLOR BY NUMBERS APPROACH TO LIFE. AT THE END OF THE DAY WHO ARE WE HURTING??? OH "THE NEW BLACK???" SINCE BARACK IS PRESIDENT BLACKS DON'T LIKE FUR COATS, RED LEATHER, AND FRIED CHICKEN ANY MORE?! WHEN YOU TRULY UNDERSTAND CULTURAL SETTINGS, BOUNDARIES, AND OUR MODERN DAY CASTE SYSTEMS, THEN YOU CAN FEEL THE GLORY AND PAIN FROM THE DAYS OF KINGS IN AFRICA TO THE NEW KINGS OF THE MEDIA. LET THE BALL PLAYERS DANCE AFTER THEY SCORE! IT'S LIFE MY N****S, IT'S LIFE! REMEMBER CLOTHING IS A CHOICE. WE WERE BORN NAKED!!! FRESH IS AN OPINION, LOVE IS OBJECTIVE, TASTE IS SELECTIVE, AND EXPRESSION IS MY FAVORITE ELECTIVE. NO MORE POLITICS OR APOLOGIES!!!"

so he wrote this on his blog responding to the critics of him wearing fur and all the other bullshit the media's been criticizing him for.  my take on this. WELL FUCKIN SAID !!! I COSIGN THIS TO THE FULLEST !! i mean, he's done a lot of shit in the past but sheeeeesh, can ya'll LET HIM ROCK?! a lot of times we forget that these famous hollywood icons are just HUMAN and still PEOPLE with feelings and are just like US. he's right you know, clothes are way to express one self and we should be given the freedom to express ourselves which ever way we feel.  THEY TAKE SO MUCH SHIT from bloggers, media tabloids, paps, and critics and all i gotta say is  YESSSS KANYE , GET EM ! lol ...

blahhhh. eh :/

soo its been raining all week! and i've been blogging all day. ugh. not to mention its SPRING BREAK O_o . shit sucks ass. but on the bright side, it gave me something to blog about :) ...lame

KICKS BRUCE LEE FLY

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NEW MOVIES WILL SOON BE ADDED IN MARTIAN THEATERS 

till then let me know if theres any films you've been dying to see but haven't got a chance yet to watch for whatever reason. ITS FREE and ITS FUN .... send in your suggestions, and make em good ....

KCA NOT SUITABLE FOR "KIDS"

ok so Rihanna performed at the Kids Choice Awards 2010 on saturday hosted by Kevin James ( funnnnnnnny dude btw) and what seemed to be kid-like was really brainwashing, provocative and not nickelodeonish at all! (my take on it btw).  i mean, what about Selena Gomez, she sings and dances and have niceee kid songs that lil kids can relate to.  Although Justin Beiber performed as well i still think Rihanna being who she is and her situation and her lifestyle in the media, that she should have not been allowed to perform. its only right.  i mean each artist has a certain age group that they wanna appeal to. you will never see Lady Gaga, or Nicki Minaj performing at the Kids Choice and so shouldn't the no longer teen pop icon Rihanna. First song she performed was "Hard." What 5-16 year old knows the real meaning behind the song "Hard" anyway.  She then performed "Rude Boy" and "Please Dont Stop the Music." The song Rude Boy is just not a song i want my 5 yr old daughter singing.  It has tons of subliminal and like i said again, kids have no idea that the song pertains to sex.

BTW DID YOU PEEP THE ROBOTS??? i mean really ROBOTS?! hmmmmmm i dont know why she was dancing with Robots but its kinda scary that this is what "kids" are jumping up and down for and all excited about.  it really had me thinking thoe.....could this possibly be another message??? another brainwashing mechanism to make children think that "robots" are ok. are friendly and nice and easy to get along with. lmaoooooooooooooooooo, yeaaaaa ok. rite

LETS TALK ABOUT SEX ...

sooooo ladies and gentlemen, i have a question that I want an answer to. HONESTLY. and maybe possibly we can all agree to disagree ?? So the question is , is it ever ok to have a one night stand.  WHEN IS IT EVER OK? can a girl just be interested in a guy for no more than sex? and would it ever be alright for a female to do it and not be called any names in the end and have her whole reputation ruined? answer me this......

guys have done it, and now females are now doing it too. ONE NITE STANDS are not only convenient but it excludes all the emotions and feelings that gets us all confused, caught up, attached, and heart broken in the end.  so why not? why not have that guy and call him up in the middle of the night and ask him to come over and just have hott nasty no strings attached sex? why not? WELLL ONE COMMON REASON. most one nite stands last for about a week or so because of lack of communication.

if your going to do it, have a mutual agreement for starters.  lay down the rules and be blunt. be real. don't leave anything behind and nothing left out.  make sure that its someone you can trust. and most importantly make sure that the guy isn't feeling you in "that way."  a lot of us females get confused and resort to having sex with that one guy they could never see themselves with , but he thinks the world of you. its ok. i know you feel secure and safe and know that he will never do you wrong but ITS WRONG. it hurts and it will only leave you both heart broken in the end.

and the list goes on......

just know that we're all human and we all have needs. its ok to have a one night stand, but too many could lead to waaaay more complicated situations, name calling, and etc.... yikes !

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY ALWAYS PRACTICE SAFE SEX ....

wait.... is that .....nah....it is ??? ewwwwwwwwwww

CAKE ANYONE ?? 

where in the world is KANYE WEST ??!! lost much? i know ya'll been thinking where the hell has he been. He's been outta the limelight for quite some time now. Someone who has always been in the media somehow vanished in thin air.  No music. No appearances. No trash talking. its weird kinda not seeing him around. Makes you wonder what it'd be like without the worlds famous Kanye. But while he's off with Amber god only knows where wearing big fur coats and dark shades, i'll let him rock ...

JUST CURIOUS....

remember him? remember the show? who doesn't rite...well i wonder where he is and what nonsense he's been up to 

OH MY GOD !!!!

so i was watching Brooklyn's Finest (which btw you can watch HD on this blog under "Martian Movies") and i just wanna give a huge shout out to the director, producer, the actors, and most importantly the writer. This movie is brilliant and remarkably stunning, mind blowing, inspiring, and a whole bunch of other mixed of emotions.  Although i dont want to give the movie away i will tell you that the movie was AMAZING. a "must see movie" INDEED !! movies like this makes my dream bigger and gives me the courage and drive that i need in order to become a good and successful film director, producer, and actress.  


speaking of film directing, producing, and acting....TYLER PERRY is another huge inspirational icon that i look up to and wanna be like.  HE IS AMAZING and also deserves a HUGE SHOUTOUT!  His films are enjoyable, comical and stories that we all can relate to.  He's played the game well to make it in this hard entertainment industry. a job well done

DONT HATE THE PLAYER HATE THE GAME ...

♩ ♪ ♫ BEAUTIFUL   Lyrics ♩ ♪ ♫ 

Take me back in the day when loving was pure
love aint going away, love is always secure
life's not always perfect, but love's always forever
lets let true love connect, lets try lasting together


im so ready to love im so ready to promise my all
im so ready to give to the day that my life is no more
i'll be everything that this woman can possible be
cause im ready to be like the olden days
when commitment was golden


be the man of my dreams and get down on one knee
say you'll be all i need and then ask me to marry you my love
lets take two golden bands, and lets walk down the isle love
i'll say i do and you'll say i do make a golden commitment 
.......


lyrics of Chrisette Michele Golden

~no typical american shady love ..